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I love pop music - have done all my life. the way it makes me feel. the happiness of losing yourself in a song. the culture around it. and how its constantly changing and fresh. and as i’m making more and more of it, i figured now was as good as time as any to give you some of my story so you know where i’m at with everything… my pop fascination first started ever since learning english as a toddler to Kylie’s i should be so lucky, dancing around and using my sofa as a make believe bubble bath :) music, art and performing were in my genes and i loved it all. and straight out of school i was persuaded into musical theatre with the lure of a professional job. it wasn’t music related. it was to play the lead of ‘Aladdin’ for a couple of months in Edinburgh. i loved the stage. performing sold out shows every night was incredible. but still, it was panto. ain’t particularly cool now, wasn’t too cool then either. and more than that, i wanted to find my own voice, my identity and my creativity. break away. and singing someone else’s songs and playing someone else’s roles wasn’t for me. i’m a creator. an artist. and miffed with the way things were going and pressures up north, i moved to london with an opportunity to study art, experience things, be a student, have some fun, and chase my dreams.
Moving to London changed my life. Going to parties like Antisocial, Boombox and All You Can Eat during my first year at uni was a world away from huddersfield where i grew up. those electric nights were more than just partying, we found our creative families. it was escapism. an era of fantasy and shared sentiment. dancing, experimenting with fashion and learning how we could express ourselves. none of us had any money, and it didn’t matter. it was a culture. parties were full of music, celebrating, dreams, personalities and creativity. it liberated me and my art began to make sense. that type of self-reinvention and human growth became the subject of my art, and i began looking at how our identities could be reshaped through creativity - art, fashion, images, performance, sculptures - and music.
Along the way opportunities presented themselves and i exhibited and performed all types of art, managing to wrap myself up in clay and cling film several times too. i was awarded studio residencies, made sculptures and created performances with them too. on top of my own work i was asked to work at Wallpaper* magazine, worked on their fashion editorials and articles, and assisted editors in creating their fantasy worlds and imagery. i was also asked to make body-sculptures for Lady Gaga, Dazed & Confused, English National Ballet and more recently Marilyn Manson (though MM’s still tbc so I’ll probably be told off for mentioning it, but its super exciting right?!) And whilst it took me a while to get here, I knew in the back of my mind, that it was all going to count, and that it was all part of the greater picture. MY picture. by making worlds for other people, I knew what world I wanted to create for myself - the sound, the message, the aesthetic, the vision - and now it’s all finally coming together.
Music is my <3. i sing and write all the time, but hadn’t shown that side of me publicly. it had been on hold for too long and for a long while became this overwhelming fear of ‘what if???’ eventually turning more into…’it’s NOW or never’… and then finally going, fuck it. fuck being scared. BAM! here i am. I AM READY! and since devoting all my time to music, i been soo much happier. everything makes sense. all parts of my creativity are equal and come together through pop music. started working with more musicians, finishing songs, creating the imagery and posting it all online to share with you. ‘panther’ was the first song posted, about obsession, torment and release. i wrote ‘future is now’ about that time too - that fear in the night when you think of what you’re missing out on, and then realising you can actually take control and DO iT. the response since has been great and last september Arts Council awarded me a massive grant to fund my first ever solo pop show - returning live on stage for the first time in years and performing new music - everything, i was incredibly nervous. the show was a big turning point for me. it was called ‘Pop Sculpture: The Filosophy of Making’ and it presented my sculptures based on pop music. pop sculpture is a term i devised to describe popular culture as a work of art - from a physical object to a song! this exhibition showed a mix of pop sculptures merging my art background with my new music. and for that show, i posted three new demo’s. Black. Movie Star. Future is Now. which you should go listen to now!
Last month I was shortlisted for Sky Arts futures fund top 10 for my music. even though it was finally announced that the fund ultimately went to a classical music project - you know what? POP DID GOOD! i was the only pop singer out of a thousand applicants to get to the top 10, which is pretty amazing considering how new i am. so i’m feeling proper proud to have got so far. next stop, the top! aaand so here we are. currently i’m tucked away making new music, meeting more people, collaborators, fans, performing and getting myself ready. step by step, day by day. so far everything i do is proper indie, all off my own back and with amazing support from my friends - all the shows, the photographs, the work, the music - everything. and next week, we’ll unveil the new video for ‘Black’ - it’s all been produced by my own StudioFIL, with my friends and i, and i’m super proud. no money, no budgets, nothing to sell. just pure passion for the art of pop music and because we believe in it and wanted to make something beautiful. i want to give you the full experience with my music so that we share EVERYTHING. it’ll be the first time you see my world captured in a music video format, and u know what? I’M WELL CHUFFED! the future is now. thanks for reading this guys, am looking forward to hearing from u!
until next time dearests, Ta ta for now.
Love Le Fil xxx